"The experience of being alive, it's isness, maybe in relation to the future isn'tness of death or maybe independent of that, or maybe a hybrid of both, can hurt so much sometimes.  Sometimes it still hurts so much to be alive that I want to die.  I am scared of dying and sad about dying and that is part of the hurt."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"I think it was then that I first made the connection that underneath my anxiety was a great sadness.  When I suppressed the sadness, I practically shook with existential fear over simply existing.  I was fighting myself.  But when the tears flowed, I felt better."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"For someone with anxiety, dramatic situations are, in a way, more comfortable than the mundane.  In dramatic situations the world rises to meet your anxiety.  When there are no dramatic situations available, you turn the mundane into the dramatic."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"If people never become real, it's harder for them to disappoint you.  That's why the Internet is good for sad people.  You can be with people without having to be with people."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"There is a large part of me, the committee, that wants to see me dead.  If it can't kill me, it'll settle for seeing me miserable.  It wants me spinning out on what I lack, talking to myself.  I don't know why these forces exist in me that want me to die, I guess I'm just wired that way.  But it's cool that there is this other part of me that must really want to live.  I don't have scientific proof of its existence, and I don't need it.  I'm still alive.  So I know it's there."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"The thing is, I'm self-centered.  I guess I'd prefer some cosmic judge thinking shitty things about me, rather than nothing thinking about me at all."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"Perhaps it is that I am of the stars and he is of the earth."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"We got to be magic together.  But is magic even real?

I want what is unreal to rescue me from the world.  I want to be a shadow of myself dancing."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"What happens to the space that two people occupied together?  How can it just disappear?  Why can it just become something else?"
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"(The thing about spending eight consecutive hours in a confined space with the same people day after day is there will always be that one person who appears more special and attractive than he or she actually is.)"
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"I'm in love with you and you don't want anything to do with me so I think we can make this work: a love story."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder

"I could say 'I love my body' so that I appear to be a good feminist.  But that only means pretending to love something I hate."
-So Sad Today: Personal Essays by Melissa Broder